piningjohn:

anigrrrl2:

piningjohn:

anigrrrl2:

piningjohn:

i’m so fucking mad that John still has his key to Baker Street in TEH like how fucked up is that

How many nights do you think he just sat there staring at it in his palm, with tears dripping off his chin, just remembering all the moments they had there together?

The sad thing is, I don’t think he ever cried.

I can’t even think about that. That fucks me up way more than thinking about him sobbing.

…but you’re probably right. He basically never allows himself to let anything out and really feel it.

Like he didn’t cry. You know he didn’t. He came close to it when he was visiting Sherlock’s grave but he didn’t. He couldn’t in front of Ella.

John can’t break down because if he does he will have to acknowledge everything he’s lost and although I’m sure John is someone who is 100% honest with himself he’s also a mess and he can’t face the idea that sherlock is gone for ever like when he does in TEH it’s at the precise moment when Sherlock comes back.

I think we will see John having a breakdown though, that we will see him completely losing it and finally letting go of all the thing he’s had in him all those years, Harry being queer, Sholto, not being able to come out, being in love with Sherlock for so many years, Sherlock dying, marrying Mary, Mary being an assassin.

He will break down and it will be fucking epic. But not yet.